Well shit, HPT says no b-day BFP for me. I am not sure if we will jump back into another cycle or not. I feel the need for a break, but we should really push forward and try again.
Stupid reason, but we are blessed to have insurance coverage for a big portion of theses treatments......my deductible is pretty low and has been met. If we wait, we waste the last few months of the year before the deductible resets. Hm, I just don't know. Treatments are so time consuming, I am unable to focus on much else while they are going on. Several Dr appointments, shots every night, more Dr appts, etc. Should probably just keep at it.
I will post more later, when I get my head wrapped around this crap. I am skipping the beta today, no point in wasting insurance $ when I know the answer!
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I know where you're at. I know the feeling of repeating disappointment. I still have the charts that I kept while trying to conceive Matthew. I don't know why, cuz I'm pretty sure he doesn't really want to show his kids some day...lol. It was a huge thing for me though. No, I didn't take any prescriptions or procedures, but I had to take my basil temperature, check cervical mucus, and have sex wether or not I wanted to ---every day for months. I was on the verge of giving up so many times. BFN days always sent me crying. My cycles were wacked, my doctor was wrong and I finally determined that my luteal phase was 9 days, sometimes 12, never the same each month and certainly not pretictable, and most of the time the temp spike was never high enough. My cycles in my early twenties were typically 60-90 days. So charting was even that more fun...I may as well of carried the chart around with me I was so obsessed/ confused. Here's the kicker. 2 false negatives at home, a negative in the office when I suspected from a sharp pain. (It was probably implantation) I thought something was terribly wrong. Then the following week it was finally positive at the office. I was almost 6 weeks along before anything was certain and any test was positive. The OB put Matthew's due date as 5/29. He was born 5/15! I took all that as God's way of telling me that the miracle of conception is His terms, His miracle...not just my efforts. All that was over 22 years ago and now my son is leaving home next weekend. Hang in there Sandi (and DJ), relax, enjoy everything else going on around you, look for the hidden prizes...and have a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! --A.B.
I am SO sorry. :( I actually saw your post yesterday on T-TTC (Yes, I was board stalking you, shoot me..). I wish I Had good advice for you, but instead I am just so angry for you.. Is there a plan to do anything differently next cycle? I completely understand you needing a break at this point. :(
Happy birthday dear.
Hey there! I already saw your BFN posts, but I'm still so upset for you. Is there anything they can do to switch up your protocol at all? Do they have any clue why they haven't worked so far? Or any other suggestions?
I am so sorry - it really just sucks. And the decision to make isn't an easy one - I can see needing a break - mentally, physically, and emotionally. But I can also see the reasoning behing moving on and the insurance.
And I agree with you on skipping the beta. It ha hurt so much the last 2 IVF's to have to go pay someone to tell me what I already knew - that I wasn't pregnant. Next time, I'm only going to go if I see two lines on a stick.
Keep us posted with whatever way you two decide - we'll be here to support you either way!
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